RAGE

My scream is unending, violent and weighed down by desperation.
Vocal chords stripped raw, and my head and my heart, not designed for such things, demand from me a heavy toll.

FRUSTRATION

That my scream is so high pitched, elevated by emotions I can no longer describe, that no one can hear me.
Just wind in the wind, another bullet with butterfly wings.

REGRET

For the life I never lived. Cannot live. Will never live.
For the wonder of love and loss, of amazing joy and sorrow, that I will never have.

MISERY

Not because I am not who I wanted to be,
But because I am someone that I wanted to never be.
Someone I wouldn’t want anyone to be.

SHAME

Because I am too weak to bear it in silence.
Because I am too weak to bear it at all.

HYSTERIA

Sick, cruel, mocking laughter, at the biggest joke of all: Myself.

They say if you don’t laugh, you cry.
I’m doing both..